I can’t count how many times I have run ahead of You to help You out. I think that I hear Your direction, but I’m really hearing mine. And then I make a disaster out of my issue by taking control and cause more pain in my life.
You point me to Sarai. When she was finally fed up with waiting on Your promise to have a child, she essentially did what I do and took matters into her own hands. Lord, when I think of Sarai’s choice to take control of her situation and how she manipulated her husband and hurt Hagar, it reminds me of the impact that my choices have on the lives of others when I am not seeking You. Lord, I don’t want my actions to cause pain, confusion, and hurt to anyone. And I especially don’t want to hurt You!
I love how You continue to show me through Sarai that even in the midst of her self-made fiasco You are sovereign and You are patient. You didn’t turn Your back on her or Abram, but You revealed Your mighty plan. You will do the same for me. Your truth tells me,
Then God said to Abraham, “As for Sarai your wife, you shall not call her name Sarai, but Sarah shall be her name. I will bless her, and indeed I will give you a son by her. Then I will bless her, and she shall be a mother of nations; kings of peoples will come from her” (Genesis 17:15–16 NASB).
Surrendering to Your plan is not always easy. The path is difficult and uncomfortable at times. But as You did with Sarah, Abraham, and Hagar, You know the good You have planned for me if I will trust You to take me there.
* I Seek Truth is written in first person as if you were the one talking to your Heavenly Father.